Monday, July 30, 2012

Window


There are two wooden chairs
One on each side of the table
That is set beside the window
Which overlooks the forest
Of dreams and aspirations
That had been woven
Together
As we sat and sipped our tea
Our impressions are still there
Little prints of fingers
Not very apart
The stain of the spilt tea
That greased my dress
Exists as a reminder
Of the days that have gone by
Days that won’t return, ever
Of conversations that breezed out
Of the framed orifice in the wall

I now see you living
In that forest of dreams
Happier than you were
On other side of the table
I still sit here
Staining the table
Hoping you will return
But you have met more people
Beyond our framed wall
You might not have erased me
I might flicker in your mind
When you hold that hot glass
And wince before burning your tongue
I remain sipping the tea
With memories to hold on to
Which I won’t let go of
Ever
It keeps me alive.   


Inspired by a photo taken by a friend. 

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Dil-li


A smoked journey to dream land
Fresh breath of nostalgic air
Warm hugs of comfort
Lazy morning of laughter and cheese
A long drawn lunch
Walk to the alley of guitars and buckets
Clouds of smoke, hot tea and singing
Foursome gallivanting on treaded paths
Jokes of bathing styles and masala fries
Metro-ed to the heaven of food
The cozy posters and benches
Chocolat fancies and sinners of gluttony
We are lost and found
Till we dream of the next day.

Egged breakfasts, drowsy and disoriented
Move to the peacock-garden
Big toothed smiles of reunion
A lunch made for three days
Knocked everyone down
Movie motive lost to language and seating
An endless adventure for Burqous*
Practiced Zen at Tao
Night of Mata, her bawling and sweat.
An early dawn of bread and packed lunch
The dreaded squash on the station
An unexpected parting
Walls of love beckoned
Arrival with summer mangoes
Eternal quest for the a/c
Coffees shared and a wallet lost
The wait for the bathed beauty
Un-censored talks and cooler
Carmensita to going Gaga
A walk to the Centre with gallons of nimbu pani
Chai Chat with old buddies
A friend who dresses for Sabarmati. Phew
Keicha, Quereshi and the three musketeers
Midnight mayhem, eating and editing.

Jaaneman and Jan Path
Coloured beads, popping eyes, bargains, bhaiyas
Pre-calculated lunch order and kazoo’s prettiness
Mapping the way back home
Rocky chatter and pizzas
An auto ride to remember for life
Hugs and promises
Sleep.
Day of departure
Locking and unlocking doors practiced
A visit of a grumpy friend
Another goodbye
Lunch over Mongolia and theatre
Dreams of scaling mountains
More promises and adieu
Final calls at the long station halt
Bye
The train hoots
I’ll be back. Soon. 

Saturday, June 9, 2012

The Work of a Babbling Brain

A wooden floor
Six creaking pairs of feet
Walk the line of duty
It is their drama to learn
Their karma awaits
Success is doubtful
It always is
For everyone
Certainty breeds contempt
Of self and others
They learn with very word
Every move
Every breath
They laugh and cry
For work and for pay
How much will depend
On how much they shed
Clothes or tears
It's a choice of life
Personal decision
Not many can make it
Break it
Fake it
To mould the body
The voice
The self
Into casts of every situation
Existential and created
Real and unreal
Is an art
Or craft as some say
The predisposition to learn and master might exist
Persist
To aspire is one
To escape another
The intent is the key
Same words can break or mend the soul
Breathe
For there will be many with wrong intents
Intentional or unintentional
You are alone
Misunderstood
And unheard
Bear it with an armor
Made of bone and muscle
Iron ones are fictitious
Made up to soothe a child's fantasy
It lies shattered with age
The pieces prick
Wounds that bleed are rare
In such situations
Hurt isn't tangible
Empirical measurement lies in textbooks
Hug that doll
It shall be with you forever
If you allow it
And fight the taunts
Turn deaf
Numb
Cold
It's the anti thesis of a fever
There are no analgesics
No pain killers
No blessed beads for protection
And definitely no shoulders
To cliched-ly cry on
Sympathy doesn't exist
Never did
So don't hope for it
Keep the hope for better things
It's what they all say
Advise
Preach
The ears ring with voices
That sound distasteful
If such a description is possible
But of course it is
Anything is
When the person sitting by you is living the life you want
It's uncanny
But you're jealous of the unknown
You can't curse it
You don't know it's name
Cuss the earth, the sun, the planetary positions
Most find respite in it
Now get back on that crowded bus
Hang on the high bars wishing you were taller
Thinner
Eyes watch
Judge
Leach
You ignore them like always
The ride is rickety and long
Six stops away
Eight signals that are always red
Does nothing go right
'Hahaha nope'
Says a voice in the cerebral cortex
Biology classes and twelfth
Then its a sepia journey until present
The stop comes
You squash your way out as your parts get squeezed
Private and public
Holds are loose and tight
Breathe
There is a rope hanging in the hardware shop
And then there were none
A twisted smile walks you home
There are no messages
The answering machine beeps
Red
Hollow
The fridge has bread
Eaten for five days now
The caps are left for todays dinner
Scrape off the jam
It tastes funny but worse has been ingested
Sickness hasn't haunted the bodice for a while
There is no consultation money
Incentive
There is class again tomo
The uncertain future awaits
Lines have to be learnt
Recited
In a thousand different ways

(4th June 2012)

Saturday, May 12, 2012

.

Chipped graphite rolls in between the finger tips
It has a wooden cloak
It nudges the white under to let it move
Allow it to dance on it
But it is repelled
By the brain that is lying beside
For it has gone through 300 emotions in the past second
The graphite mulls
Not knowing what piece to perform
Its confused
The wooden cloak it wears is getting sullied
It looks ancient
But has no proof of experience
It is still long but not drawn
It has not been written with
Danced with
It is handled by nail-bitten appendages
Anxious and trembling
Scared of what might be said or heard
It needs to let go
Of the brain
Of the fingers
Of the cloak
Of the white
All of it

Sunday, May 6, 2012

A Minute

Give me a minute
Let me rewind
To a time long gone
To a wind blown away
A morsel chewed
Trickled bead of sweat
A morning tea
Rustling crisp leaflets
Fogged spectacles
Kohl smudged eyes
Tired jubilant smiles
The stretch on the bus
Heavy backs of bags
The setting sun
Starry night walks
Familiarity of populace
Touch of books
The lost letter
Seventh birthday card
A crumpled photograph

Snippets of my Coloured Compartmentalised Life.